the next time i come back to livejournal will be when i finally know enough html to actually edit livejournal templates. until then, i have moved to here.

i'm going to miss the user icons. sigh.

ahh i'm going crazy over livejournal's horrible template editing system. it's primitive and completely un-user-friendly. and it doesn't allow for javascripts! okay, so maybe it's because i only know very basic html editing and all. in any case, once i finish up editing the skin i will probably move back to blogger or something.

... i'm going to miss being able to have a user icon for each entry. and the lj-cut function. and the leaving of comments, which is way more fun than simly tagging.

maybe i can replicate some of that in blogger hmm...

okay sorry for the techno-rant. i just want to have a pretty skin up and ready before i leave for taiwan in 3 more days.

had a very enjoyable day with the pooks today. we had food, and kbox, and tennis and swimming for the rest while i read a book because my dad believes all lifeguards are slackers and i will drown without his supervision. but it was still fun anyhow. and we had a nice, nice dinner at the hawker centre above shop & save near my house. life's pretty fun if everyday is something like this. good food and good company and good things to do make me happy.

anyhow, this is from boonwei.

Virgos born on September 18 have great self-control and use their energies for valuable achievement. September 18 people are serious and mysterious and go about their lives with quiet precision. They only trust those closest to them and may discreetly promote themselves as enigmatic, even eccentric.

Virgo Information for September 18 You should embrace: Emotional equilibrium, a love of nature, laughter You should avoid: Passivity, deception, secrecy

Friends and Lovers

Although they may seem emotionally cold, September 18 men and women are shy. They prefer to keep their own counsel, yet when they discover someone they can trust, they're grateful. In love, they can appear illusive and glamorous. This is a way to hold something of themselves in reserve until they find the perfect person.

Children and Family

September 18 people often experience disappointment in youth, which springs from strained family relationships. They are sometimes tentative about becoming parents, fearful that they will repeat the same mistakes. If they do have children, they try to give extra affection.

Health

September 18 natives are nearly fanatical about their health and fitness. They tend to follow a very strict routine that includes aerobic exercise and sensible eating. People born on this day have nervous energy that needs to be channeled positively. A hobby that is both enjoyable and relaxing can help them.

Career and Finances

People born on September 18 are happiest when they can do their work in private, without interference of a supervisor. They have a strong work ethic and good work habits. Although they may have problems with the big financial picture, they have very careful habits that can lead to financial security early.

Dreams and Goals

People born on September 18 usually have academic goals that blossom into career plans. They know how to budget their time and how to put their intellectual and spiritual resources into getting what they want.

"academic goals that blossom into career paths" huh... i should really just block out all thoughts about studying and what i should do for the next few years because i honestly haven't got a clue.

sometimes i wonder why i'm staking so much on things i really shouldn't place so much importance on. it happens for everything -- even for the people around me or the decisions i make. little things like expecting too much out of people who really don't see me the same way i see them, or making a big deal out of something frivolous which i really shouldn't be bothered about at all. i care too much about the things i should not care for, and care too little for the things i should be paying attention to.

sigh.

times like now make me feel like i'm teetering on the edge of a precipice or something; one wrong step ahead and i could fall so deep i would never get back up again.

my neighbour has this very pretty, sparkly christmas tree put up in her living room so you can see the tree when you walk past her house. and it's placed such that it's perfectly framed by the white window frames, so it looks like a scene cut out from a hallmark christmas card. it's very pretty. i wish we could put up a christmas tree too. i think the last time we were in singapore during christmas and had a tree up was when i was in primary school or something. okay i will sneak a picture or something soon. i say "sneak", because somehow it doesn't feel very right or polite to strut up to her doorstep and boldly take a picture. haha.

okay i will go off and sleep in an attempt to rid myself of my start-yawning-the-minute-i-step-out-of-the-house habit i've been unwillingly cultivating these few days.

if i imagine things a little...

even if my parents do finance my silly desire to study in japan, i have to spend one year in a prepatory school learning japanese and other subjects like history and geography. sort of like an all-round course in japanese.
even if i do manage to get by that one year, i will have to take the EJU which is some entrance examination for international students. and for business administration courses, i have to take EJU exams for japanese, japan and the world and math. and i was so happy when math ended because i thought it meant no more math for the rest of my life. my chances of passing this EJU are bleak bleak bleak.
even if i do manage to pass the EJU, there's an "applicant screening process" and an interview to get through before i get a place in the university.
even if i do get a place in a university, i have to get through four years of studying whatever course i decide to take.

...

as if things aren't hard enough in singapore already.

so i put looking for information on studying in japan on hold, and went off to look for information on courses in local universities. and i kind of realised i really have no clue what i want to do still...

is it more painful to struggle to get what you want because it is so far off from where you are, or is it more painful not knowing what you want to struggle for? sometimes i wish time would stand still here and now, because going back is too painful and i'm too fearful to go forward...

and it's horribly cold today.

happy birthday, weird preserved head. not that you'd see this anyway, so i guess i'm free to insult you as much as i want here. or not, because it'd really just be a waste of time. okay happy birthday then. ^^

everyone is out partying and all and hardly anyone updates their blogs anymore. i'm just about the only person who still blogs so regularly, and that's only because while i'm blogging i'm waiting for the episodes of rainbow romance to load. i've combed about six different shops to date in my search for a vcd/dvd version of the series but NONE of the shops have it in stock, so i've to resort to waiting for tudou to load the episodes slowly and painfully.

my to-watch list is long and seemingly endless now. there are the six horror films from wj i have yet to watch, and the parfum film bw burned for me, and maou which i have to watch a second time round, and then there's rainbow romance, and chunja happy event, and (if i can find them) recordings of the stage plays ikuta toma's been in. i'm not just being a fangirl here, really. the plays are actually interesting! and and, if i manage to find a good-paying job i will go comb the esplanade listings for a nice musical/play/concert to go to because i feel in the mood for one.

if only i had a million dollars to spend...

oh well.

i hope taiwan will be cold and nice and full of good things to eat and buy.

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if anyone was wondering why i'm so obsessed over rainbow romance, this should be good enough reason why.


that is just about the sweetest thing anyone could do...

okay, so maybe the fact that it's kibum doing it makes that much of a difference. i could imagine ikuta toma doing it too though. ahh alright too much fangirling.

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too tired to blog much. there was this art installation piece we saw in the walkway to esplanade, and 2 of the frames were really intriguing. i'm not sure if it's exactly illegal to take photos of it (you know how in museums they always have the no photos signs and all) but i still did anyway.



in case you can't read it, the first one says "to brace her for it i take her hand, this much i give to her. but my hand is cold." and the second one reads "after all i'm her knight." i'm not sure if the meaning of it comes across since it's taken out of context and all, but it's really cool anyway. if you happen to be in the area you can pop by and take a look i guess.

okay, i'm off to sleep. days so far have been a flurry of going out eating coming home and watching rainbow romance. it's a routine i'm rather happy with anyhow.

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i realise, in my annoyance at not being able to figure out lj templates, i kind of deleted several comments for the previous entries. sorry guys, if they were the ones you'd tagged! i think they were the comments for the entry with all the prom pictures, where ryan asked about my missing him out in the photos and yimean's thanking me for the photos. and i think km tagged too! i'm becoming old and absent-minded already.

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i am so annoyed with lj's templates because i can't figure them out, and i've half a mind to switch back to blogger because it's so much easier there! but i really like lj's display pics and stuff and all... ahh. i will struggle a while more with lj templates and see if i can figure them out.

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okay, i can't be bothered to do up a template from scratch because lj templates are really, really complicated. i think this one is pretty cute anyway. now, if only i could separate the user icons from the text because now all the second paragraphs are pushed to the left...

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sorry for the late photos, if anyone's been waiting for them. i've been so tired the last few days from staying up late for l4d/fable 2 and the post-prom sleepover and all. alright, less talk more pictures yes?



the girls minus max, wynne and angel because they weren't here yet. from left: sam, me, rab, rach, yimean, wt, ale and xuefang. for once in class history, we didn't all turn up in shades of black and white.



the guys minus... okay minus quite a lot because they were either scattered about the place or hadn't arrived yet. from left: chin, bff amos, francis, km and charles.



from left: rab, sam, me and wynne. i'm sorry it's so blur, i blame my camera! i should have switched on flash earlier. okay never mind, grabbed this photo from sam's blog. it's much clearer here.



bff amos and i! we both happened to be wearing white that night. haha.



the class with mr hsu, our wonderful gp teacher! he's seated in the centre. and it's a blur photo again, sorry sorry!



yimean, ale and km the jealous boyfriend. haha.



rach, yimean and me.



ah, finally, all the guys minus ryan and daryl and karan. take a good look at their full heads of hair, because come next year most of them won't have hair anymore. except for francis of course haha. top row from left: tommy, aston, peiyen, charles, amos, km, chin, and chris. francis is the one kneeling in the centre. seeing the guys all suited up was very cool. ^^



from left: amos, francis and km.



wt and yimean.



boonwei and i. haha boonwei your dyed hair looks nice!



chris and i! and it's a blurred photo again. i really need to do something about my camera...



my lovely, wonderful pw group. from left: amos, chin, wynne, me and km. haha you guys made pw and tj life so much more bearable. i don't know what these 2 years would have been like without you guys. (:



all the girls. top row from left: rab, rach, angel, max, xuefang, sam, yimean and ale. wynne and i are kneeling in the bottom row. everyone looked so pretty that night. haha and max and ale looked like real celebrities for some reason. i'm serious! while we were eating i was telling that to yimean and she agreed with me. and the girls all had very pretty dresses and in yimean's case a very cool-looking butler-y outfit. plus a cool hat.



the whole class of 22/07. top row from left: ale, rach, xuefang, max, yimean, angel, rab, charles, chin, amos, tommy and km. bottom row from left: wynne, me, sam, peiyen, chris, francis. oh wait, people are missing. aston has left in his usual fashion (vanishing without a trace) and karan isn't here... and ryan and daryl who weren't here.



mr hsu and yimean. you would see mr hsu's pained look if it wasn't for my blurry camera. haha. and then there's yimean and ale sneaking in a photo together while km is presumable busy elsewhere.



that's karan and me, and then that's wt trying on yimean's hat.



wynne and i and then rab and i. i cannot imagine what the past two years would have been like without them. wynne the wonderful friend with whom i got past pw days with, and then all the lit classes and all. you are very much cherished as a friend haha. and rab, even though i always say i hate you, for the record, i really don't. just in case you didn't know that already. ^^



angel and i and then max and i. both of them looked very celebrity-ish that night! haha.

( for yimean, all the kuro-ish pictures. )

ah that took a long time. prom was a fun end to our 2 years as a class wasn't it?

and, i'm really sorry. i never realised my selfishness would affect anyone else... i'm sorry the night wasn't as fun for you guys because of my being so self-centred and only caring about how i would feel...

prom showed us so much, didn't it...

some things really never do change, like how at every 2C outing we still split up into guys and girls. maybe it's just because we're all still stuck with some lower secondary kind of mentality or something. it's pretty amusing anyhow. haha it was a fun outing anyway! got to see many people i hadn't met for a very very long time, and ivy updated us all on uhh... stuff. it's amazing how much she knows! she would do very well as a spy.

and it was a very special outing because for once we managed to persuade everyone to watch a horror flick heh heh. except it wasn't really horror in my opinion because i got too annoyed with the female lead in quarantine who did nothing for half the movie but scream and hyperventilate loudly. mmm. and then we went for some ice cream in the hopes that when we sat down we would actually get a chance to start talking, but it was the guys-girls thing as usual. haha i seriously think it's just a 2C thing.





let's have another one when wilson comes back, shall we? next time we can go some place like minds' cafe or something. haha.

anyhow, got to organise a pooks outing at minds' cafe. haha let's all play taboo again! and i've got to figure out what it is i have on the 8th. i just have this nagging feeling i'm not free that day, but i can't recall what it is i have on exactly.

okay, off to sleep so i can stay awake for l4d after prom tmr. or today, really.

i hate hate hate it when i quarrel with people, but i seem to possess an uncanny knack for doing so. even if i know whatever i'm about to say/do will anger the person i go ahead and do it anyway, and then i regret it horribly later on. and i never know how to salvage the situation, so most of the time it's always the other person who forgets all my meanness and talks to me again.

i hope things blow over soon.

okay, 2 days to prom and a lot of stuff to get ready. people who weren't in the mass convo earlier and who are coming for the post-prom stayover at my house, we talked about the following -- those who want to club (i think this includes amos, francis, chin... speak to them about it.) will go clubbing first, and those who don't can come home with me first where we'll change and wash up and stuff before we can xbox/mahjong/watch some movie/have supper/karaoke (some karaoke thing opened outside my house, don't know when it opens till though.)/any other random activity we think up. after the clubbers are done they'll come join us. and we'll do random stuff again.

before prom i shall go get my hair done in the morn, come home and dress up and stuff before meeting the rest at 4.30pm. i get this horrible feeling that it will all be a very mad rush.

alright. i will go off to bed before i get dark rings around my eyes from sleeping so late every night.